yeah.. supposed having training now. or i should say the training is now.. -.-" 5 days. by shinmaywa.. aniways..

now office is peaceful. lol.

jus finish clearing up some jobs..

i think i have not post a funny story.. lol.
its between one of our stby tech and mike.
story heard from alfred.
stby (holding their stby phone and ask mike) : er mike.. our phone got problems. sometimes apron or who call. we cannot hear what they say. and they got angry at times.
mike (suddenli get fedup) : this one i dunno. i cannot be taking out my money and buy the phone. they going to throw the tyres now and can take the money go buy.

-.-" stupid right.. lol. we throw tyres also nv get money. zZz.. plus. pple onli feedback for him to help ma. he site manager dunno den who know. lame..

aniway. yesterday.. was a busy day too..

somehow. still went out to sell the scrape metal at noon.. lol.
as usual. went to buy coffee, biscuit etc for everyone..

next next. came back to office. was doing some work till like nearly 6..
when mr louis called. -.-"
so around 6+ went off.. went to tampines.. to look for his place to pass him some documents. anwiays.. it took me damn long to find his block.. zZz.. finalli.. after 15min or so. i found... waited for his son to came down.. den.. finalli..
i can go home~!
lol..

so.. today.. also nth much to say abt..

work is the same everyday.. >.<

爱上你是一个错

人生有许多难关要过
自古是情关最让人难受
也许我命中注定情海中颠簸
为你我付出这么的多
却让我痛到有苦不能说
因为我爱你就像那飞蛾扑向火
请你告诉我爱上你是一个错
别让我失魂落魄着了魔
解开我的迷惑
收起你的冷漠
你怎忍心这样做
请你告诉我爱上你是一个错
别让我漫漫长夜守寂寞
伤痛已经太多
心也早已伤透
我已不想再为谁去等候

tuesday blues..

im still in the office~! yeah. -.-" job cannot be finished.. finish ler.. still more to come.. zzz.. having training tml leh. 5 days.. how to survive. which means. 5 days of work stack on my desk? damn.

aniway.. as usual..

today.. went to throw tyres with tahir and nad.. den went to collect castor wheel.. came back to office... and!!!! that "boss" ask me do such stupid things.. 10 items total. but one item raise one purchase requisition leh! stupid. tell him cannot.. but.. he question me back. and called finance.. lame. im not gonna say... animore..

some pics to share~!

yeah.. halfdone with my blogskin.. ~ still more to edit.. hehe.. shall continue other days.
well. shall upload some pics from thailand~!

all the Fino there is all super cute man~!


our journey.. on the 'tuk-tuk'


KFC~! the chilli sauce there is nice~!


somewhere near patpong..




elephant... lol


0.o


yeah!


shark fins...


bird nest... yummy...


@chinatown..






their mrt?





thats a big.. crab?

it swam away.. -.-"

cute creature..

fishes in the car.. wheres the key..!

hes so engross in his giant garouper..



sawadikap~



hidin.





he swears he will not eat chocolate icecream for 1 year..

i believe that everything happens for a reason..
people change so that you can learn to let go..
things go wrong so that you can appreaciate things when they are right..
you believe lies until you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself..
sometimes, good things fall apart so better things can fall together..
learn to appreciate what people do.
things that won't make you die makes you grow stronger.

work till damn late yesterday.. zZz..
went to kian teck ytd with alfred and ac tan..
cox.. we are supposed to reach at 330..u see... but.. 330 we are still at airport.. on the way there.. hees.. cox.. after we take the lorry.. they load the checklist etc.. which we are going to put there.
so... aniway. went to HQ to fetch vivian.. reach kian teck around 4+++++... lol.. unload the things.. and bring back some cabinets and one table for store..
went off at 5+.. fetch vivian back. and..
traffic jam! -.-"
reached airport at 7+..
reached home at 8+... >.<

some mumblings..

sometimes.. pple says we must fight for our own happines. but how true isit? it takes two hands to clap. and thus, it also takes 2 to get the future happines.. wads the point when there is only 1 fighting hard for it, and it only ment have zero results. so... sometimes, things are not ment to be. no matter if you have tried or not.
i think it will make me feel even worse if i do fight hard and end up with nth.. or.. it will make me feel better that i have tried my best? so contradicting..
so suddenli.. having the thoughts.
divorcing rates are higher and higher each day. but i dun understand why.
so wad marriage actualli is? name of husband and wife legally? or to build a better home..
wads the point of marriage when there is a divorce system..
maybe i've seen too much..
but.. thats life.. >.<
somehow.. i must learn to treasure and cherish what i have now...

im baack again~!. its more frequent than last time okay.

aniways. 19th march 09. thurs. was having a terrible headache. thus, took MC. missed the PLB test.. zZz..
so.. 20th march 09. fri.. also on MC..

but.. im a good girl. cox i went to work on saturday. lol...

aniways...

wad i do last week? hmm.. remember going to ECP to try out the new pond(pole fishin)... well.. it was not bad.. there was one guy super funny. with his family. he caught the fish ler. will throw the rod in the pond. lol.

so.. next day. went again with ling, jason and his gf.. but.. it was very bad. lol. but i saw them caught lobster~! haha.. aniways..
imagine..
3hrs - $45.
we had 3 rods..
total pond have around 6 rods..

but. only around 2 fishes was caught at that whole pond~! -.-"

nvm.. later on.. the rest went back. times up. so the uncle beside us pass us one rod.

total.. we had 4 rods~! stayed for like 2hrs? without a single bite. lol. so we was like playin around.
(i think we will get ban there.. =x) we did not even went to return the rod.. lol. and just leave it there.. cox. i think put there one whole night also nth. lol.

saturday night. fishin again lor. with ling and his colleague kenny. at pasir ris big pond.

aniway. hes so very bad.

since that day.. he keep give me attitude.. sunday went to my grandma house.. that day also attitude. pms.. monday also nth good.. zzz..

aniways.. ytd night. acc him to pasirris pro pond. and i fish at the pole fishin. NO FISH THERE! propond average. den later jason and candy came.. lol.. so slack there.. see him fish. -.-" with his new rod.

oh ya. he brought a new rod and a new cast~! nice... think last few days? lol.

shall stop fishing for a few months!


oh..! i cant stop complaining about work. lol. or rather. abt that site manager. lol.
(do not bother to continue to read.. cox im just grumbling. lol)
hes so super irritating~!
he loves to claims he is busy
this things not urgent. nvm. other day.
den.. u know. he was seating there talking~!
still can go to canteen for long hrs.
den.. my things cannot close~! because of him not even wanting to pass me that single piece of invoice.
sickening.
well.. this happen last few days. lolx..

today.. he was talkin on the phone loudly. as usual.
one guy called and ask him for PO.
he claim he very busy~! need 2-3 days to trace~! no time~!
and best thing~! the PO thing also not he do one~!~!~!~!~! stupid.
i was still thinking after he hang up the phone. he will ask me to find. but.. he did not~! lol.......
next thing.. he went to canteen~! so BUSY.. ya.. lolx..

thailand!

yeah. having a terrible headache now. -.-" damn.

aniway. went to bangkok with darlin~! from 07march09 to 12mar09.
it was fun.
uncle fetch us to airport in the morning.
reach bkk around 9+ bangkok time.
reach hotel.
they say 2pm den can check in!
so we did not went to chatuchak as planned.
thus walk around the area nearby.

second day.
went chatuchak at noon and patpong at night!

third day
went to chinatown! and my memory failing.

aniway went to siam area, MBK, platinum etc also.

stayed for 6days 5 nights. =)

birdnest and sharkfin was nice.
clothes is cheap. muahhahaha..
roadside stall food is nice.
japanese food is nice.
its so damn hot.
oh ya. went to the "underwater world"
saw our "tun ge" (super big garouper)
saw the "royal knife fish" which we had one at home. but. theirs is so big!

however. last two days. we got sick. -.-"

maybe we went down to walk. den go back hotel for the aircon. lol.

come back sg. he was even more sick.
took urgent leave on monday. which i suppose to start work.

tuesday... having a headache. thought will be better after my slp. but wake up on wed morning. it become worse. but.. ps to take mc leh. so mani days on leave ler. so struggle to work. damn.

well. shall stop here.!

I hide my tears when i say ur name,
but the pain in my heart is still the same.
although i smile and seem carefree.
but there is no one that miss u more than me.

yeah... finalli completed the ADGS thing~ but... but.. still left with meterin index and auto cad drawing. =(

aniways... yesterday.. work was alright. went to had macdonalds breakfast with alfred. so.. actualli is our breakfast and lunch. lol.
after work... went back home for dinner. den darlin bring me go see doctor.. because of those stupid sandflies or insects that bite me... argh. cox two weeks ler.. still haven recover. and he say because my skin is retarded. therefore, two weeks den start to feel uncomfortable. sickening.

so today.. did not ride to work. ling ling fetch me to work ma.
so.. now only 1pm.. later still need to go airport police to renew my pass.
*i dun wan to take photo again... =( *

catherine tan! i wanna play guitar hero...! and..
i wanna play mahjong. muahha..

tonight having dinner with mama.. wonder wad shes gonna treat us.. hehe..

sometimes... i feel like giving up... giving up on everything.
hurts in my heart. cuts heal it.

yeah.. was on leave today..
no mood to work..
=)

friday night. 27th march.
went to meet the girls~! after my work, went back home to change. and ling fetch me to city hall.. iris was the earliest lor! first time! den together with cat, hsing chieh and iris. went to have dinner at waraku pasta at MS. den went to max berners for chocolates!
cat was happi. because she finali brought us there. lol.
i wanna go again~ muhaha..
after that, went to cat house for mahjong!
i lose 5bucks leh. to angeline koh!
we played guitar hero..!!!! it was fun..
played till like 4+... and all of us was fkin sleepi.
reached home. and i fall asleep.. lol.


saturday was my off day~ muhaha..
slept till like near 1pm. got woke up by boy when he reached home.
wake me up and we go punggol auntie pond for fishing.
i caught a KBL~! muhahaha... skye and his wife came to find us.. his dad also came down. no fish at that moment, and they went back.... the sky is wierd. it rain and stop. it rain and stop. -.-"

after that... went back to wash up. everything.. and came to ah ma house. stayed till quite late as it was rainig...

sunday....... as usual... i won't wake up earli.. lol... wake up at 1+pm... went to mama house with ling ling. give her the fishes... den mama bring us for lunch. it rained again. -.-" waited for the rain to stop. and wanted to go visit grandpa. but it rained when we are on the way there. got drenched. thus, went back home lor...

waited for iris seah... she fianlli call me at 6+... went to changed and cab to J8 to pick her... and we went to villa balli. reach there ler.. they say changed destination. so.. jo frens drive us there. and we went to mount faber to have dinner... the food was ex and was not nice de.. -.-" waited for so long also. aniway.. jo came together with zr.. and she was so surprised... lol.. because two groups of her different fren was there.. lol.

aniway... after her bday celebration, me iris and zr went off first. jo fren drove us down the hill.. and den shared a cab with iris. drop her back home and i went farmway 1 to find ling ling, jason and candy.
so candy drove jason car out to fetch me. and acc her to get smth from jason house and we went back to farmway 1.
no fish de... boring.. -.-" stayed till 2am and went back.


and so.. today i was on leave~ i slept till like 3+? lol..

haven upload the pics.. shall do it later.. lol.

Nice Song.. lol

最近

你最近不说话
怎么了，为什么
是不是有什么事啊
你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱
有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
想要的我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
成天是这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再疼苦
下一次会有更好的情路
你最近不说话
怎么了，为什么
是不是有什么事啊
你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱
有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
成天是这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再疼苦
下一次会有更好的情路
爱我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
成天是这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再疼苦
下一次会有更好的情路
这一次我们都能很幸福

im sleepy..

has been goin out till late at night since the past few days.. zzz..

many things to tell.
many things to say.
but.. sometimes. things are best left unsaid.

Quiz~!

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.


How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.



@http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

this blog has been collecting dust for the past months. never update for such a long period of time.. as u can see.

work and work... why wanna work... beacuse...
People work for the money not because they love the company...
this sentence was told by one of the manger from another place. haha.. and i remember it till now. as its quite true leh. fianally get my bonus. and is more than i expected. happy happy.

going to thailand in the next two weeks. one week free from work... yeah..

suddenly have this thought that it had been nearly a year since i have spoken and contacted my "dad". well.. actually with him or without him.. life still goes on. as he did not change much of my life. except for making myself more independant.
what can i do. because i cant choose my parents.

grandpa has been stayin in braddell nightingle for quite a long period of time.
happy thing is that he finally get to go back to his own house during chinese new year period.
=)

This chinese new year was not as great as last year.. lost so much money. =(

i wanna play mahjong.......... where are all my mahjong kakis... hai...

to say of work.. i'm able to stay at changi airport. thanks to my colleagues and my new division manager...

but.. still to say.. i'm still afraid i could not make the job well.. but i will try not to disapoint them. as they had make so much effort to convince the client. sigh.. but with water tank around.. sometimes its good as job is easy with this guy but sometimes.. a headache.. shall not say more..

went to ZR bday party at changi.... saw mani peeps that i've not seen for years..~! and still not that bad as i thought. was not that strangers.. =)

i do not know what i really want.
life is not like fairy tales.
and i wont have one.

All i want is a word from your heart.

i know it cannot change the fact.
why everything wants to start when i already know how it will end.
i know its giving and taking.
sometimes i wish time will stop at that moment.
i wanted to ask.
but i'm afraid.
To swear this again and again.
i will not drop a tear for anyone else anymore.

do you believe that those who make you cry is not worth your tears? hmm..



*have you ever kissed someone and regretted?*

life is short... or some even think that its too long... hehe.. wadeva..

aniways.. finalli changed my bike~! its still kups la..

finalli passed my driving license.. happi happi..

life's bored... zZzzZzz...

somehow, im so sleepi.. and tired.. physically.. zZz... wish i could have more sleep.. hahaha..

was typing this inside the office.. and.. today is a peaceful day u see..
as.. the "site manager" is on leave! but i think without a leave form..well.. i dun care.. i rather his not here.. lolx..

i need a part time job... freelance job... =( its like so difficult to find those which is not long working hours.. tired one leh if work 8-9 hrs of night shift..

tommorow another working day... and.. saturday will be our company D n D.. first time to attend this type of event.. lol.. as im a super lazy person, who does not like to attend all this things ma.. not unsocialise okay.. haha..

this month budget gonna be damn tight.. hai.. insurance... road tax... inspection... everything comin up!!!

i will survive because i wont die of hunger yet.. lol..

ciaoz!

argh!!!! i failed my TP AGAIN!!! 4th time man.. so... dots la.. u see.. today morning.. but..

nvm..

im gonna pass one day.. hopefully i dun have to retake my ftt.. but is like so broke la.. hai..

aniways.. was back to changi airport one week ago.. previously was attached at AH.. a super duper sux place.. its so warm and hot there.. with lots of mosquitos..
and ya.. most interesting.. we saw cobra can.. lol..

next next.. 5 of us went there.. me, fish, azhar, nad, shahin.. aniways.. we went queensway.. went ikea.. went anchor point.. and even went jurong point..

we dun only shop okay.. we even went to the plant room etc.. and.. me and fish was like.. flipping hundreds and thousands pieces of papers everyday.. zZz..

yeah..

after AH.. was back at airport.. zZz..

have this very complex feeling around.. due to mani mani things which i also dont know myself how to elaborate.. sigh.. seeing some of my frens havin parents support to let them continue their studies where i dun have.. wanted to work myself and earn the cash seems so tough for me.. well..

work is still neutral i say.. though i dun really like the site manager.. who act funny to make pple laugh but had a attitude in work.. shall see..! cox hes a foreigner.

sometimes hate being lie by someone who i think is my good friend... but naturally, i can understand why this lie is said.. and times, i'm wondering does .. take me also as a good friend or somethings.. i hate to be in this sitatuation to be so concern about a fren.. and this had not been happening to me after so many many years.. mayb the feeling is because wad happen ytd i guess.. wierd me.. but i told myself again and again.. its nth.. okok.. nothing.. >.<

please.. i must wake up from my dreams, and face the reality!!!! but i dunno wad is the reality leh..

have been like half a year since my dad din contact me.. and i din contact him.. and wad happend that time when i was at chalet was jus like a show... no feelings at all..

its been so numb cox its been happening for the past 20 years..


hope things will be better.. and i will think better!!!

yupx.. three months since i step into this blog... well.. just some of the things that had past since the last few months..

did went for the grad day... quite alright i guess..

after that was actually the end of our contract... last day was workin night shift, which is on the 30th june... many of our pple was working... and it was fun but super tired.. cox i worked the previous night, went home and catch a few hrs of slp.. and came to work again at afternoon.. till the next morning... but.. after handover, all of us went simpang bedok for breakfast. and some were drinking early morning.. haha..

next few days was at TOCC... no site.. so had a job which is to do PLB audit with boon and hernan... and the second week of july was our chalet!!!! its fun i say.. =)

after the audit, which end around 3rd week of july, actually went to PLB... cox fish wanted to be there.. so together ma... as she dun like equity plaza so din went there also..

aniways.. its been two weeks alreadi since i join PLB.. quite alright but dun really like some pple there.. zZz.. so attitude one..

failed twice of my TP.. damn it.. sigh.. add more oil man!!!!!!!

dear bloggy~! i am back.. haha.. because im so free now.. u know.. after two night shift.. and i cant slp now.. -.-" but aniways the time track is so lost alreadi lar.

aniways will be goin to grad day~! so mayb shall post again about that.. i guess..

one months plus more before i leave airport... so that means no more shopping after that inside the transit! damn.. im gonna go for two more shopping when i got my pay.. muahhaha...

Darlin boy is acting wierd nowadays..

humph..

his bday is comin~! but i dunno wad i shall get for him..

which site should i go?? so confused.. but hell.. i wun wan2 go to MHI.. lol..

shall stop here.. bye~!